Pushing for Vulnerability…Still

I’m still working hard on vulnerability, which is my word of the year for 2014. And last week, I made a couple of realizations that is making it a little easier to become vulnerable.

1.) Showing and owning my emotions makes me feel…real. Honest. It’s a relief to let it all out.

2.) when it comes to being vulnerable, and I start to feel wishy-washy and chicken out about doing/saying something, I tell myself to do the exact opposite of my natural/default reaction. If I would “normally” want to run the other direction to avoid a hard conversation, I suck it up and say what needs to be said. If a friend is hurting and I don’t know what to say and want to avoid saying anything, I call her and ask how I can help. I have some bad habits that have formed and often (sadly) doing the opposite of my initial reaction is the right thing to do.

How about you? What are you doing to help yourself grow?


Getting Curious

No excuses about why it’s been two weeks since I last blogged.

Moving forward.

Earlier this week, I thought to myself, “Isn’t it about time for Abby to enter the “why” phase?” I was kind of thinking she would maybe just skip over that.

Literally…the next day, it hit.

Suffice it to say, when Abby does something, she does it completely. And very enthusiastically. So she’s learning and exploring her world. She’s questioning things, trying to fit the pieces together and make sense of it all.

And I’m in the same boat, just on a much different level. Instead of wondering why a person needs to water houseplants or brown hamburger for runzas (just two of her many “why” inquiries today), I’m wondering…

…Why I let other people dictate who (they think) I am.

…Why I’m so afraid of rejection.

…When did exploring my insecurities become something I can embrace rather than hide from?

…why am I sitting here watching/entranced by the somewhat creepy ‘Oz the Great and Powerful?’

You see? So very much to explore. 😉

Seriously, though. Why not ask why? My default reaction to new thoughts/ideas/old patterns is becoming, “Get curious.” Explore the options. Stop limiting myself by accepting the status quo. Break away from the old stories that I’ve carried with me since 5th grade.

It’s time, people!

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. (Romans 12:2 NLT)